
My baby is three today, but my baby is not a baby anymore. How do I know this? Many ways, but most recently it is her interest in all things "pretty" that has me worried and thinking, "We're not in Kansas anymore." It seems as though all of a sudden she wants to wear skirts and dresses and spin around and talk about things that are "pretty." Just the other day as we were assigning parts for our game of acting out the Christmas story (yes, we know it's almost February) she asked, "and who are the pretty people again?" because she wanted to make sure that was the part she got. What!!!??? Three weeks ago she wanted to be Mary because clearly Mary has a very important role in the Christmas story. Now she wants to be "the pretty people." Oh my. I know this sounds funny, but I'm really not laughing.

I have tried so hard. We don't buy princess books. Fairy Tales are screened very carefully. We don't let her watch princess movies. We don't let her watch shows where the girls are dumb, needing rescue, or just accessories. We don't comment on her clothes except to talk about how things feel or go together etc. We don't do her hair so it can look pretty. We do her hair so she can "see the world" and do everything she needs to do that day. Rarely do we make comments about her appearance at all. Mostly we try to comment on what she does or says or thinks not on how she looks. We read Ladybug Girl, Trixie, and Dora books. So what is it with all this "pretty" stuff? She is only 3! Well, it's out there in the world and as much as I try to keep her safe from it, it is out there. All I can do is try to send other messages, additional messages, counter-messages. Just tonight as I put her to bed she said, "Can we get the Ariel book. She is so pretty." So I said, "You know that being pretty isn't what matters, right? What matters is being kind and smart and strong and funny and loving. You know that, right, Anna?"
My three-year-old daughter is so much more than pretty. She is confident, funny, loving, caring, strong, fast, articulate, daring, and smart. She can hit a baseball that is pitched from me or or Jon with such force that I usually cover my face after I release the ball so if I get hit in the face it will hurt less. She beats me at Hungry Hippos every day. She can brush her own teeth, speak with a southern accent, and get dressed entirely by herself. She loves to sled, ice skate, and ride a toboggan at 32 mph. She is good at puzzles, singing, dancing, creating shows, and being a super hero. She loves to care for her baby Audra/Samuel, "read" to herself (at least 15 books at bedtime), "write," draw, play with her brother, pretend to speak Italian, play Dora, play school, help clean up, and speak with so much emphasis that both hands and wild gestures are often needed to get the point across. She is so much more than pretty.
Anna, when I think of the future sometimes I get impatient because I so badly want to see how your life will unfold and how God will call you to use your gifts to bring hope and healing to the world. I think you have so much potential. I just pray that you will get to do and be all that you want to do and be, and I hope and pray that I will get to be here to see it. I try to savor each day with you, enjoying the little things, but sometimes it's like I just can't wait to experience all the things we will experience together and to see your life unfold. I am just so genuinely excited about life with you.
Oh, Anna, I hope all of your recent "pretty" talk will pass. I hope you will never feel pressure to look a certain way. I hope you will never ever ever ever ever think that your worth or value is in any way related to how you look, but I'm realistic. I know this isn't going away. The pressures girls face today are unreal, but know this my daughter: Daddy and I couldn't care less if you are pretty. What we care about is you, and
you are so much more than clothes or hair or skin. You, my dear are spirit, breath, mind, and heart. We care about you, and we love
you now and forever.
We love you to New Orleans and back.
Happy Birthday, my darling daughter.